Under the emotions and out of control.
All that I hide comes out when I cry
Every part of me shows and I hate it
When I lost it.
Reflecting on reflections of my past
That’s got me to where I am.
And I repeat it till I can’t feel it
Drink away the memories
Consumed behind all those red doors
Till I’ve drank myself an ocean
Of tears spilling over the surface
And I do it every time
All hidden behind my “I’m fines”
And down the rabbit hole
Of all my issues I never want to face
Brick by brick,
I build them away
Painted with pain, held together
With the secrets of my heart
All that I am, behind the wall
To be locked in for an eternity
Until I can’t hold it in anymore
And I spiral out of control.